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I couldn’t live, I couldn’t breathe
Without you by my side,
Never will I let you go,
My love will never hide
You have stolen my heart:(
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:That thing you do-The wonders
Hello Beautiful World,
My sister is getting married tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the day in which they would have the exchange of rings at the bride's house but the wedding reception and dinner would be on Saturday.
I don't know how to explain this but the feeling is mixture of both good and bad.Good because i am extremely delighted my sister will be married to the love of her life but sad because she will be a wife of someone else and would be starting her own family.It's alright,it's just a phase of life.Everybody has to experience it one day.
I am so so happy for you sis!I can't put into words how happy i am:)
On the other hand,this is for a friend:
I wished i could tell you but i can't bring myself too.Sometimes,i do have my moments in which i feel empty inside,everyone does.The emptiness longs for Your presence.What is this?
I have got to go out and spend some quality time with my sister over lunch,have a great Wednesday:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
XX
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: touched
- Music:According to you-Orianthi
Hello Beautiful World,
I am angry with you,you think i have no feelings.You think that you can just use me when your bored and let me tell you again,i will not let anyone use me.I am not deserving of that.I really don't know how to tell you,i wished i could but i just can't bring myself to tell you.You think your like some new sensation and you think you can just chuck people aside like that,only using them when you have nothing better to do.
You know i never show it,that is why i keep you in suspense.You need to learn.Honestly,you have got to build up your level of maturity.
Goodbye,you are not worthy of my friendship anymore.This tolerance and frustration will not pull me down because i will not let it bring me down.
I am angry with you,you think i have no feelings.You think that you can just use me when your bored and let me tell you again,i will not let anyone use me.I am not deserving of that.I really don't know how to tell you,i wished i could but i just can't bring myself to tell you.You think your like some new sensation and you think you can just chuck people aside like that,only using them when you have nothing better to do.
You know i never show it,that is why i keep you in suspense.You need to learn.Honestly,you have got to build up your level of maturity.
Goodbye,you are not worthy of my friendship anymore.This tolerance and frustration will not pull me down because i will not let it bring me down.
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Pretty Boy-M2M
Hello Beautiful World,
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
I am finally back from my Module Two Leadership Camp.I would say although the camp was tough and pretty exhausting mentally,the process was a journey of development and it clearly defines what a true leader is.I learnt a lot about my council EXCO and hopefully,in 2010,we would be a stronger team,we are all working towards it.We can do it.
If your reading this and you happen to finish module two,i strongly encourage you to use whatever you had learnt from the camp wisely so that we are able to make something useful out of our lives:)
During the camp,i felt it was hard to break away from the internet world but i am sure there is a lesson to be learnt from the process.I can still live without the internet world,at least for just 4 days haha and another factor that affected me was how i missed so many people(including a person and i know you know that i know who you are),the feeling is clearly indescribable.
Happy holidays,i cannot wait for my sister's wedding.:)
If your reading this and you happen to finish module two,i strongly encourage you to use whatever you had learnt from the camp wisely so that we are able to make something useful out of our lives:)
During the camp,i felt it was hard to break away from the internet world but i am sure there is a lesson to be learnt from the process.I can still live without the internet world,at least for just 4 days haha and another factor that affected me was how i missed so many people(including a person and i know you know that i know who you are),the feeling is clearly indescribable.
Happy holidays,i cannot wait for my sister's wedding.:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:Fireflies-Owl City
Hello Beautiful World,
You,yes you,I sincerely have never thought it would end up this way.
Every young lady,in fact,every female in this narrow-minded world deserves the right to be treated with respect and dignity.
Young ladies out there,be strong.Remind yourself that nothing out there can ever destroy you.
Happy Holidays!:))
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
You,yes you,I sincerely have never thought it would end up this way.
Every young lady,in fact,every female in this narrow-minded world deserves the right to be treated with respect and dignity.
Young ladies out there,be strong.Remind yourself that nothing out there can ever destroy you.
Happy Holidays!:))
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: calm
- Music:Pretty Boy-M2M
Hello Beautiful World,
I think it's an addiction.
The feeling of being sore on my arms after wake-boarding is gone.I miss that feeling of being sore all over and also the feeling of having the adrenaline rush when i'm either running competitively or just wake-boarding.
I miss that feeling and i want it back no matter what.
You might be thinking,"Who in the world likes the feeling of having sore muscles after a workout?".
Well,i strongly admit,that person is me.
I don't know why but i would say that the adrenaline rush,the feeling of lifting my arms and having to put it down again because it was too sore,has become a part of me.Once that part has gone or faded,i'm in deep desire to get it back again.I would not agree that this soreness is a bad feeling,maybe the soreness reminds me of who i am,of what i love to do and basically it gives me a sense of purpose or the determination to continue in that particular sport,hmm i really don't know but all i know is,i just need to get the soreness back.
I will go wake-boarding this coming weekend,i must.
One of outcomes of being a sports-person. :0
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
The feeling of being sore on my arms after wake-boarding is gone.I miss that feeling of being sore all over and also the feeling of having the adrenaline rush when i'm either running competitively or just wake-boarding.
I miss that feeling and i want it back no matter what.
You might be thinking,"Who in the world likes the feeling of having sore muscles after a workout?".
Well,i strongly admit,that person is me.
I don't know why but i would say that the adrenaline rush,the feeling of lifting my arms and having to put it down again because it was too sore,has become a part of me.Once that part has gone or faded,i'm in deep desire to get it back again.I would not agree that this soreness is a bad feeling,maybe the soreness reminds me of who i am,of what i love to do and basically it gives me a sense of purpose or the determination to continue in that particular sport,hmm i really don't know but all i know is,i just need to get the soreness back.
I will go wake-boarding this coming weekend,i must.
One of outcomes of being a sports-person. :0
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
determined - Music:Vanilla Twilight-Owl City
Hello beautiful world,
This phrase will always stand by me for the rest of my life,
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
Sometimes i wonder why i'm not letting go,why your sudden comeback makes me happy,wanting to forget the fact that i felt "forgotten" in the first place.I go back.
I don't know what it is but i guess i'm confused with a decision i have to make.I hate to admit that i get mushy at times,that i tend to fall into my daydreams,that i've had moments where i don't want to get up from lying down because i know i would have to face it but i have the other side of me which wants to forget the worse moments,the worse feelings and move on to being the happy Olivia everyone would love to see:) Everyone has their moments,don't they?At the end of the day,
i'm still the happy Olivia.
I believe it's a phase i'm going through.I deal with new things that come my way and these things try to interfere with what i strongly believe in as well as what i have.I will not let it do that,
I am strong.
I think it's time for me to choose what i really want,not get caught up in my feelings and let you play around with it.
This is it,goodbye to you:)It's my time to move on.
A busy young lady has no time to deal with such nonsensical issues.
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
This phrase will always stand by me for the rest of my life,
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
Sometimes i wonder why i'm not letting go,why your sudden comeback makes me happy,wanting to forget the fact that i felt "forgotten" in the first place.I go back.
I don't know what it is but i guess i'm confused with a decision i have to make.I hate to admit that i get mushy at times,that i tend to fall into my daydreams,that i've had moments where i don't want to get up from lying down because i know i would have to face it but i have the other side of me which wants to forget the worse moments,the worse feelings and move on to being the happy Olivia everyone would love to see:) Everyone has their moments,don't they?At the end of the day,
i'm still the happy Olivia.
I believe it's a phase i'm going through.I deal with new things that come my way and these things try to interfere with what i strongly believe in as well as what i have.I will not let it do that,
I am strong.
I think it's time for me to choose what i really want,not get caught up in my feelings and let you play around with it.
This is it,goodbye to you:)It's my time to move on.
A busy young lady has no time to deal with such nonsensical issues.
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: mellow
- Music:Saltwater room-Owl City
Hello Beautiful world,
This will sound completely random:
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
x
This will sound completely random:
"To be honest,i've never really felt this before.It's a strange feeling but it also enlightens me with a feeling i cannot possibly put into words.
Sometimes i just don't know how to react."
I have to go and prepare for an important council meeting with my exco members on Tuesday.Goodnight sweeties:)
Sometimes i just don't know how to react."
I have to go and prepare for an important council meeting with my exco members on Tuesday.Goodnight sweeties:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
x
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: sleepy
- Music:fireflies-Owl City
Hello Beautiful World,
My Saturday was not very exciting and i would say since everyone has their shitty days,my shitty day was today.
My best friend has forgotten about me and so i stayed at home for to do council stuff.
I need to get out of the house and head to town very soon.
Somebody please save me.
*smiles*
Thermal shots:
PS: I agree with looselippies,PMS is not a pleasant thing to deal with but don't worry we'll overcome it.
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
My best friend has forgotten about me and so i stayed at home for to do council stuff.
I need to get out of the house and head to town very soon.
Somebody please save me.
*smiles*
Thermal shots:
PS: I agree with looselippies,PMS is not a pleasant thing to deal with but don't worry we'll overcome it.
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
blank - Music:Saltwater room-Owl City
I had a dream of you last night.
x
Dewicinta 09'
Dewicinta 09'
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: peaceful
- Music:Fireflies-Owl City
Hello Beautiful World,
My examinations ended today i must say,i feel a sense of accomplishment.After having to attend a council exco meeting after the papers ended,i headed home to get ready for wake-boarding with my sister,Oliver,Louis and Angus.(I'll miss all of you when you go back tomorrow!Don't worry i'll visit you in Aussie soon hahaha)
Honestly,i had the ride of my life.Although it's my first time attempting to "water-ski" ,i decided to go on the knee-board for a start.The first round was horrible,i flew off my board and splashed hard into the water even before reaching the first point.
My examinations ended today i must say,i feel a sense of accomplishment.After having to attend a council exco meeting after the papers ended,i headed home to get ready for wake-boarding with my sister,Oliver,Louis and Angus.(I'll miss all of you when you go back tomorrow!Don't worry i'll visit you in Aussie soon hahaha)
Honestly,i had the ride of my life.Although it's my first time attempting to "water-ski" ,i decided to go on the knee-board for a start.The first round was horrible,i flew off my board and splashed hard into the water even before reaching the first point.
I did not give up.
I got up,waved to the rest to as signal to assure everyone that i was "alright".I pursued to try again together with the helpful advice provided by the instructor.
Down the bend i went and i managed to complete two rounds in a row.Boy,i had so much fun that i could actually feel the adrenaline rushing through my head.The feel of being able to be free on water made me feel like i was flying and that i could leave all my worries behind.The taste of salt water was unpleasant though,i guess i'll get used to it.
Down the bend i went and i managed to complete two rounds in a row.Boy,i had so much fun that i could actually feel the adrenaline rushing through my head.The feel of being able to be free on water made me feel like i was flying and that i could leave all my worries behind.The taste of salt water was unpleasant though,i guess i'll get used to it.
I have decided to go wake-boarding again.Possibly,every weekend.This sport is definitely my "thing".
My arms are terribly sore right now but i know it's a good sort of pain.
PS:Pictures are with Aunty Michelle,will retrieve it from facebook soon!haha
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Ben-Michael Jackson
"Could it really be that simple?Could romantic love and platonic love and parental love all be different facets of the same diamond -- brilliant, no matter which face is turned up to the sun?"
-Vanishing Acts,Jodi Picoult
x
Dewcinta 09'
Off to wakeboarding soon,have fun celebrating the end of the examinations.Free at last
-Vanishing Acts,Jodi Picoult
x
Dewcinta 09'
Off to wakeboarding soon,have fun celebrating the end of the examinations.Free at last
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
anxious - Music:With or without you-U2
Hello Beautiful World,(I find the x-small text nice to look at and it takes up less space)
On my way back home today,i found the train ride pretty amusing and significant.
As i drifted away in deep thought in the midst of the beautiful,up-beat music of my ipod,i see passengers moving to the same rhythm of my music -like as if they are putting up a performance for me to see.Others just rumbled past me,with the vivid look on their faces;it was like as if they were in slow-motion.Gosh,i wished i could do a demonstration for you now to show you how some people were walking.Utterly hilarified(no such word mind you),i started giggling to myself because this coincidence is definitely a sort of coincidence you never get to see on any other day...
Or maybe it was just my imagination...
Oh well,my History and E math paper 2 went well today so here i go,off to practice A-math:)
On my way back home today,i found the train ride pretty amusing and significant.
As i drifted away in deep thought in the midst of the beautiful,up-beat music of my ipod,i see passengers moving to the same rhythm of my music -like as if they are putting up a performance for me to see.Others just rumbled past me,with the vivid look on their faces;it was like as if they were in slow-motion.Gosh,i wished i could do a demonstration for you now to show you how some people were walking.Utterly hilarified(no such word mind you),i started giggling to myself because this coincidence is definitely a sort of coincidence you never get to see on any other day...
Or maybe it was just my imagination...
Oh well,my History and E math paper 2 went well today so here i go,off to practice A-math:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: calm
- Music:I will learn to love again-Kaci Brown
Hello Beautiful World,(Decided to use " extra small text" today)
Well today i had my Chemistry and Pure Literature paper and i must say,it was manageable.I am going to do whatever it takes to reach my goal for the results of this term.After the paper,i headed down to study for my History paper for tomorrow with Shanny and we headed back home after that.I would have to clear Chapter 5 and 6 first because i think that these two chapters are more complicated than you think.It's alright,i can do it:)
Confidence in yourself is key.
I have decided that i would not let anything get in my way from reaching my goals and i think that all of you out there shouldn't let anything bring you down either.At the end of the day,for example,if you had an argument with someone very close to you and it's during your examination period,do not let it affect you.It is never worth it in the end.I suggest you go outside,take a deep breath and go into the house feeling rejuvenated and fresh to start on your studying.
Cool it off,that's the best way.
BUT after your examinations are over,do not,i repeat,DO NOT run away from the problem.All i'm saying is,you should never let a certain problem bring you down but it does not mean you should ignore it.Just focus on the things that matter to you based on priority.After doing what you have to do,you find a solution to the problem you have been facing.It takes time for situations to heal and work.
Oh well,i wish YOU(whoever is reading this) the best of luck for your final year examinations.I am very sure you'd be able to do it if you work hard enough.
I have faith in YOU.Muacks!:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
Well today i had my Chemistry and Pure Literature paper and i must say,it was manageable.I am going to do whatever it takes to reach my goal for the results of this term.After the paper,i headed down to study for my History paper for tomorrow with Shanny and we headed back home after that.I would have to clear Chapter 5 and 6 first because i think that these two chapters are more complicated than you think.It's alright,i can do it:)
Confidence in yourself is key.
I have decided that i would not let anything get in my way from reaching my goals and i think that all of you out there shouldn't let anything bring you down either.At the end of the day,for example,if you had an argument with someone very close to you and it's during your examination period,do not let it affect you.It is never worth it in the end.I suggest you go outside,take a deep breath and go into the house feeling rejuvenated and fresh to start on your studying.
Cool it off,that's the best way.
BUT after your examinations are over,do not,i repeat,DO NOT run away from the problem.All i'm saying is,you should never let a certain problem bring you down but it does not mean you should ignore it.Just focus on the things that matter to you based on priority.After doing what you have to do,you find a solution to the problem you have been facing.It takes time for situations to heal and work.
Oh well,i wish YOU(whoever is reading this) the best of luck for your final year examinations.I am very sure you'd be able to do it if you work hard enough.
I have faith in YOU.Muacks!:)
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: optimistic
- Music:Bring sally up-Moby
Forgive
to stop feeling angry or resentful toward someone for (an offense, flaw, or mistake)
In other words,it means forget BUT make sure the person does not do it again
One of the things that annoy me the most is that sometimes people fail to see the severity in saving a long-term friendship.
After knowing you for practically ALL my life,since we were little babies,you have chosen to chuck this friendship aside.Yes,i admit to my imperfections but i cannot tolerate people who do not accept me for who i am.Although we had our moments of argument(from when we were oh-so-young) we still managed to forgive and forget in the end.You are the cousin who understands me the most and only you can read me like a book,so why would you want to waste this 15 years of friendship just because of one particular petty incident which had occur not between us but between others that has caused it to break this close friendship?
You think that you know it all but you are completely and utterly WRONG. We are both family no matter what happens and we promised to be there for each other no matter what the circumstances are.
Let us forgive and forget,cousin.Nobody lives forever.
to stop feeling angry or resentful toward someone for (an offense, flaw, or mistake)
In other words,it means forget BUT make sure the person does not do it again
One of the things that annoy me the most is that sometimes people fail to see the severity in saving a long-term friendship.
After knowing you for practically ALL my life,since we were little babies,you have chosen to chuck this friendship aside.Yes,i admit to my imperfections but i cannot tolerate people who do not accept me for who i am.Although we had our moments of argument(from when we were oh-so-young) we still managed to forgive and forget in the end.You are the cousin who understands me the most and only you can read me like a book,so why would you want to waste this 15 years of friendship just because of one particular petty incident which had occur not between us but between others that has caused it to break this close friendship?
You think that you know it all but you are completely and utterly WRONG. We are both family no matter what happens and we promised to be there for each other no matter what the circumstances are.
Let us forgive and forget,cousin.Nobody lives forever.
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: irritated
- Music:Tell me-The Wonder Girls
It's impossible to describe or put this into words but although it sounds a bit mushy,
My heart beats so fast every time i see you again,it's like as if i'm nearly deprived of my words.
That never happens to me,only you can do that.Why do you keep doing that?:)
My heart beats so fast every time i see you again,it's like as if i'm nearly deprived of my words.
That never happens to me,only you can do that.Why do you keep doing that?:)
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Take my hand-Dido
07 October 2009:
The Singapore Idol show was both impressive & enthralling at the same time.The roaring but supportive crowd at Mediacorp were very encouraging and i would say,it lifted the spirits up for all of us.With much excitement and enthusiasm,i was impressed by the amount of energy the crowd had sustained for the whole,entire show.
Pictures from yesterday:
-Credits to Kak Ain(Jezabelle Isa) for the photos love you kak!
We look so happy!haha
Cheryl,Kak Hani,Kak Ain,Kak cute!haha they are all so lovely and pretty!
Cheryl is sooo tall!
My Friend,the talented singer:
It's almost impossible to not be amazed by Faizal's awesome singing talent whenever he sings for the crowd.With his charm and talent,he will definitely make it far in this idol journey.
Faizal's a friend of mine whom i met when we were both doing modelling together about a few years back.So coincidentally our paths crossed again during the Singapore Idol Auditions when my elder sister auditioned.All the way Faizal!Do vote for him!:)
It's almost impossible to not be amazed by Faizal's awesome singing talent whenever he sings for the crowd.With his charm and talent,he will definitely make it far in this idol journey.
Faizal's a friend of mine whom i met when we were both doing modelling together about a few years back.So coincidentally our paths crossed again during the Singapore Idol Auditions when my elder sister auditioned.All the way Faizal!Do vote for him!:)
Farhan,Faizal and Tabitha!(she's GORGEOUS)
There's Charles,Matt and Malaque!:)
I would like to thank Kak Ain , Faizal and everyone else who invited me to the show!haha i made many new friendships with such lovely people!
Here's to a goodnight!For the next week,i'll be extremely busy studying for the examinations so i guess no more updates till' then:)Wish me luck!
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
There's Charles,Matt and Malaque!:)
I would like to thank Kak Ain , Faizal and everyone else who invited me to the show!haha i made many new friendships with such lovely people!
Here's to a goodnight!For the next week,i'll be extremely busy studying for the examinations so i guess no more updates till' then:)Wish me luck!
With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: sleepy
- Music:So hot-Wonder girls
2nd October 2009:
Girl Power
At first,the girls came over to my place...
Nura just loves my cat,Juliet.Last Friday was completely unforgettable!I had so much fun with the girls and we managed to go to everybody's place on time without finishing very late.The journey on the MRT was just so hilarious because every ride was a completely different one,we encountered many different kinds of people and all sorts of strange stuff;how Dinah,Dania and I went through one door and the rest had gone through another.So when were in the train,we looked above us to find that the lights have cracks on them and it could shatter anytime soon.The best part of it was how we were so concerned about the lights(is it going to shatter and make us blind?haha)shattering that we missed the stop!Nura & the rest were shouting at us to come out but just as when we were trying to exit,the doors had shut closed(it seemed like the doors were "mocking" at us).
Love you girls!^^
Girl Power
At first,the girls came over to my place...
Nura just loves my cat,Juliet.
Love you girls!^^
With Love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
Dewicinta 09'
xxx
- Location:Home Sweet home
- Mood: happy
- Music:Nobody but you-the wonder girls
"Time is a strange commodity,because we seem to have so much of it,until the moment we have none at all."
- Location:Home Sweet Home
- Mood:
curious - Music:La la land-Demi Lovato
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...
- Mood: peaceful