Olivia Dewi Cinta Higgins

New directions

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 17:52:19 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

The new holding school awaits pupils of C.H.I.J St Theresa's Convent.

Many of you might think that this school is hideous and gross but it's not as bad as you think. There are of course, good and bad points of our "new" holding school but hey, let's live with it: This will be the school you will be studying and this will be the school in which you would be growing up in for the next two years :) Why not make full use of the surroundings and enjoy what this "new" holding school has to offer? I've been to it many times and i would have to say, some things need to be changed but my Student Council EXCO will try our best to make the school as colourful as we can :)

I just love how Father Barre's statue is right beside our school values,mission,vision and motto.

As the holidays slowly fade,school stress starts building in.
There is so much to do; Goal-setting, new adjustments to Council etc etc It's all boils down to one-word,
Change.

We expect so much more from ourselves and when we only manage to give so much does that define us as failures?
Absolutely not.

I look at the new year ahead of me and i think to myself the different changes i could implement in the different areas in my life.

Here's the chart i have on my wall:

Consists of what i strongly believe in and what i plan to achieve in 2010.My goals are not up yet but they are about to go up soon, it's about time i stop procrastinating and start doing it :(

Here's another thing: The word, procrastinate.

The cruel fact is, we all procrastinate but there is also a good truth, the truth of being able to avoid this procrastination and start moving.
It's going to be hard but i will definitely try.

Looking forward to 2010! Goodnight world, you are always beautiful to me.

With love, Dewicinta 09' XX

Burn

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 10:43:33 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,
Sometimes you fall into a hole so deep,it's hard to get out.

Blink of an eye

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 06:51:52 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

It's a great afternoon because it's cloudy and it isn't raining. Today,i will be going out to experiment with my new camera and i will not procrastinate anymore.

A picture i took with Adhya during her stay in Singapore:

Yesterday, i sat on my bed without a single expression and started dazing about my holidays. Everything passed so fast and now we've only got approximately two weeks left till' school starts again. Throughout my holidays,i have attended three camps.(Module two,YoReCa,Outward Bound Singapore)I would say the most memorable camp would be YoReCa because the friendships made were the best. I got to know so many people from different backgrounds and they happen to be from different schools. However, the other camps were just as memorable but were different altogether.

Module two taught me a huge number of things about leadership and i am thankful the school has made the effort to develop our leaders in this area. OBS was really interesting and it turned out so much better than i thought. I was dragging my feet to OBS at first but when i finished the program, i had no idea why it ended so soon.

It's always like that, isn't it?

Our selfish minds never think about the amount of effort to make a camp a success. Instead, we think about the bad possibilities that can occur at the camp and how much we would miss the luxuries we have at home.

Some photos from YoReCa:

Honestly, i really miss Silent BoomZ (The name of my group) terribly. I had the time of my life, thank you guys for making it happen:)

I love you all <3

Well, i'm glad i have learnt an important lesson after the camps. I would say tolerance/patience is an essential virtue. Don't waste your time thinking about what could go wrong but why not take what you have and have been given and make full use of it? The surroundings around you might not be as comfortable as you would like it to be but if you change your mindset, things would turn out much better than expected ^^

Don't worry, it's not the end. It's only the beginning.

With love, Dewicinta 09' XX

First steps

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 17:15:00 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

I apologize that i haven't been updating due to the busy schedule filled with council meetings,trainings,social outings etc.Well,throughout these few days i have been experimenting with my new SLR D5000 camera and i have to agree,it takes excellent photos.Although i haven't mastered the skill of photography,in fact,i'm only at stage one,i am still able to follow-up on the progress i have made from the day i got the camera.

First photo: ME!
Here are some shots i took of my sister and her best friend: <Random much?>

I love how her hair is in the air and the camera is able to take a snapshot of that moment,it's amazing.

I love how the camera takes such clear photos and that i am able to adjust the speed and also the aperture settings.The camera is so complicated and there is so much more to learn about it so i have to have more time;)Hopefully,i'd be able to take great shots one day.

I'm working towards improving this skill.

Tomorrow,i'd be heading down to the Botanical Gardens to do some experimenting.Plus,i'd be going to take photos of the Christmas scene in Orchard so that i would be able to send the photos to my relatives in Australia,i wished they were here:(

Have a goodnight sweeties.

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx

Chase IT

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 11:37:24 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

"If you have a dream, don't waste your energies explaining why."

- Paulo Coelho

With Love,
Dewicinta 09'
XX

Your courage

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 07:51:40 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

It's been a long time since i last updated so let me brighten your day with this poem if your feeling upset or if your in the midst of giving up.
I've been through it all and even i have felt this before,so i hope this helps because this poem brightened my day:)

Courage
by Wish Belkin

When evening comes the shadows grow, as the sun begins to set.
Take care that you don't come to know, a thing that's called regret.
Not what you try or what you do, throughout a carefree youth.
It's what you don't you'll come to rue, when time reveals it's truth.

There is wisdom to be had from mistaken words and acts.
You'll find that failure's not so bad, it strengthens you in fact.
Rejection's fear or the fear of failure, that paralizes you.
Is the stuff of tears and that which keeps you dreams from coming true.

It takes a certain kind of nerve to tell someone you care.
But then nature tends to serve the person who would dare.
Bravery isn't something you can cultivate from seed.
It must be conjured up anew each time that there's a need.

So take these words and hold them close, it's certain you'll find that,
one second of courage to speak from the heart will result in you hearing them back.

From Wish Belkin's "Diurnalis" © 2000

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
XX

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 07:38:04 GMT

I couldn’t live, I couldn’t breathe
Without you by my side,
Never will I let you go,
My love will never hide

You have stolen my heart:(

Excitement and delight

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 08:36:02 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

My sister is getting married tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the day in which they would have the exchange of rings at the bride's house but the wedding reception and dinner would be on Saturday.
I don't know how to explain this but the feeling is mixture of both good and bad.Good because i am extremely delighted my sister will be married to the love of her life but sad because she will be a wife of someone else and would be starting her own family.It's alright,it's just a phase of life.Everybody has to experience it one day.
I am so so happy for you sis!I can't put into words how happy i am:)

On the other hand,this is for a friend:

I wished i could tell you but i can't bring myself too.Sometimes,i do have my moments in which i feel empty inside,everyone does.The emptiness longs for Your presence.What is this?

I have got to go out and spend some quality time with my sister over lunch,have a great Wednesday:)

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
XX

Nonsense

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 11:12:48 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

I am angry with you,you think i have no feelings.You think that you can just use me when your bored and let me tell you again,i will not let anyone use me.I am not deserving of that.I really don't know how to tell you,i wished i could but i just can't bring myself to tell you.You think your like some new sensation and you think you can just chuck people aside like that,only using them when you have nothing better to do.
You know i never show it,that is why i keep you in suspense.You need to learn.Honestly,you have got to build up your level of maturity.

Goodbye,you are not worthy of my friendship anymore.This tolerance and frustration will not pull me down because i will not let it bring me down.

Do your best

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 07:59:18 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

I am finally back from my Module Two Leadership Camp.I would say although the camp was tough and pretty exhausting mentally,the process was a journey of development and it clearly defines what a true leader is.I learnt a lot about my council EXCO and hopefully,in 2010,we would be a stronger team,we are all working towards it.We can do it.

If your reading this and you happen to finish module two,i strongly encourage you to use whatever you had learnt from the camp wisely so that we are able to make something useful out of our lives:)

During the camp,i felt it was hard to break away from the internet world but i am sure there is a lesson to be learnt from the process.I can still live without the internet world,at least for just 4 days haha and another factor that affected me was how i missed so many people(including a person and i know you know that i know who you are),the feeling is clearly indescribable.

Happy holidays,i cannot wait for my sister's wedding.:)

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx

Happy Holidays

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 05:36:52 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

You,yes you,I sincerely have never thought it would end up this way.

Every young lady,in fact,every female in this narrow-minded world deserves the right to be treated with respect and dignity.

Young ladies out there,be strong.Remind yourself that nothing out there can ever destroy you.

Happy Holidays!:))

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx

Adrenaline Rush,an addiction

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 04:36:22 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

I think it's an addiction.

The feeling of being sore on my arms after wake-boarding is gone.I miss that feeling of being sore all over and also the feeling of having the adrenaline rush when i'm either running competitively or just wake-boarding.

I miss that feeling and i want it back no matter what.

You might be thinking,"Who in the world likes the feeling of having sore muscles after a workout?".

Well,i strongly admit,that person is me.

I don't know why but i would say that the adrenaline rush,the feeling of lifting my arms and having to put it down again because it was too sore,has become a part of me.Once that part has gone or faded,i'm in deep desire to get it back again.I would not agree that this soreness is a bad feeling,maybe the soreness reminds me of who i am,of what i love to do and basically it gives me a sense of purpose or the determination to continue in that particular sport,hmm i really don't know but all i know is,i just need to get the soreness back.

I will go wake-boarding this coming weekend,i must.

One of outcomes of being a sports-person. :0

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xx

Goodbye

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 13:36:54 GMT

Hello beautiful world,

This phrase will always stand by me for the rest of my life,

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

Sometimes i wonder why i'm not letting go,why your sudden comeback makes me happy,wanting to forget the fact that i felt "forgotten" in the first place.I go back.
I don't know what it is but i guess i'm confused with a decision i have to make.I hate to admit that i get mushy at times,that i tend to fall into my daydreams,that i've had moments where i don't want to get up from lying down because i know i would have to face it but i have the other side of me which wants to forget the worse moments,the worse feelings and move on to being the happy Olivia everyone would love to see:) Everyone has their moments,don't they?At the end of the day,

i'm still the happy Olivia.

I believe it's a phase i'm going through.I deal with new things that come my way and these things try to interfere with what i strongly believe in as well as what i have.I will not let it do that,

I am strong.

I think it's time for me to choose what i really want,not get caught up in my feelings and let you play around with it.

This is it,goodbye to you:)It's my time to move on.

A busy young lady has no time to deal with such nonsensical issues.

With love,
Dewicinta 09'

xx

Blossoms

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 15:44:56 GMT

Hello Beautiful world,

This will sound completely random:

"To be honest,i've never really felt this before.It's a strange feeling but it also enlightens me with a feeling i cannot possibly put into words.

Sometimes i just don't know how to react."

I have to go and prepare for an important council meeting with my exco members on Tuesday.Goodnight sweeties:)

With love,

Dewicinta 09'

x

We are glass

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 13:10:20 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

My Saturday was not very exciting and i would say since everyone has their shitty days,my shitty day was today.
My best friend has forgotten about me and so i stayed at home for to do council stuff.

I need to get out of the house and head to town very soon.

Somebody please save me.

*smiles*

Thermal shots:

PS: I agree with looselippies,PMS is not a pleasant thing to deal with but don't worry we'll overcome it.

With love,

Dewicinta 09'

xxx

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 02:40:11 GMT

I had a dream of you last night.

x
Dewicinta 09'

Wake-boarding

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 14:28:43 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,

My examinations ended today i must say,i feel a sense of accomplishment.After having to attend a council exco meeting after the papers ended,i headed home to get ready for wake-boarding with my sister,Oliver,Louis and Angus.(I'll miss all of you when you go back tomorrow!Don't worry i'll visit you in Aussie soon hahaha)

Honestly,i had the ride of my life.Although it's my first time attempting to "water-ski" ,i decided to go on the knee-board for a start.The first round was horrible,i flew off my board and splashed hard into the water even before reaching the first point.

I did not give up.

I got up,waved to the rest to as signal to assure everyone that i was "alright".I pursued to try again together with the helpful advice provided by the instructor.

Down the bend i went and i managed to complete two rounds in a row.Boy,i had so much fun that i could actually feel the adrenaline rushing through my head.The feel of being able to be free on water made me feel like i was flying and that i could leave all my worries behind.The taste of salt water was unpleasant though,i guess i'll get used to it.

I have decided to go wake-boarding again.Possibly,every weekend.This sport is definitely my "thing".

My arms are terribly sore right now but i know it's a good sort of pain.

PS:Pictures are with Aunty Michelle,will retrieve it from facebook soon!haha

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 08:28:06 GMT

"Could it really be that simple?Could romantic love and platonic love and parental love all be different facets of the same diamond -- brilliant, no matter which face is turned up to the sun?"

-Vanishing Acts,Jodi Picoult

x
Dewcinta 09'

Off to wakeboarding soon,have fun celebrating the end of the examinations.Free at last

Imagination?

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 07:40:52 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,(I find the x-small text nice to look at and it takes up less space)

On my way back home today,i found the train ride pretty amusing and significant.

As i drifted away in deep thought in the midst of the beautiful,up-beat music of my ipod,i see passengers moving to the same rhythm of my music -like as if they are putting up a performance for me to see.Others just rumbled past me,with the vivid look on their faces;it was like as if they were in slow-motion.Gosh,i wished i could do a demonstration for you now to show you how some people were walking.Utterly hilarified(no such word mind you),i started giggling to myself because this coincidence is definitely a sort of coincidence you never get to see on any other day...

Or maybe it was just my imagination...

Oh well,my History and E math paper 2 went well today so here i go,off to practice A-math:)

With love,

Dewicinta 09'

xxx

Finals,do you best.

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 08:19:40 GMT

Hello Beautiful World,(Decided to use " extra small text" today)

Well today i had my Chemistry and Pure Literature paper and i must say,it was manageable.I am going to do whatever it takes to reach my goal for the results of this term.After the paper,i headed down to study for my History paper for tomorrow with Shanny and we headed back home after that.I would have to clear Chapter 5 and 6 first because i think that these two chapters are more complicated than you think.It's alright,i can do it:)

Confidence in yourself is key.

I have decided that i would not let anything get in my way from reaching my goals and i think that all of you out there shouldn't let anything bring you down either.At the end of the day,for example,if you had an argument with someone very close to you and it's during your examination period,do not let it affect you.It is never worth it in the end.I suggest you go outside,take a deep breath and go into the house feeling rejuvenated and fresh to start on your studying.

Cool it off,that's the best way.

BUT after your examinations are over,do not,i repeat,DO NOT run away from the problem.All i'm saying is,you should never let a certain problem bring you down but it does not mean you should ignore it.Just focus on the things that matter to you based on priority.After doing what you have to do,you find a solution to the problem you have been facing.It takes time for situations to heal and work.

Oh well,i wish YOU(whoever is reading this) the best of luck for your final year examinations.I am very sure you'd be able to do it if you work hard enough.

I have faith in YOU.Muacks!:)

With love,
Dewicinta 09'
xxx

Forgive and Forget

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 07:03:09 GMT

Forgive
to stop feeling angry or resentful toward someone for (an offense, flaw, or mistake)
In other words,it means forget BUT make sure the person does not do it again

One of the things that annoy me the most is that sometimes people fail to see the severity in saving a long-term friendship.

After knowing you for practically ALL my life,since we were little babies,you have chosen to chuck this friendship aside.Yes,i admit to my imperfections but i cannot tolerate people who do not accept me for who i am.Although we had our moments of argument(from when we were oh-so-young) we still managed to forgive and forget in the end.You are the cousin who understands me the most and only you can read me like a book,so why would you want to waste this 15 years of friendship just because of one particular petty incident which had occur not between us but between others that has caused it to break this close friendship?

You think that you know it all but you are completely and utterly WRONG. We are both family no matter what happens and we promised to be there for each other no matter what the circumstances are.

Let us forgive and forget,cousin.Nobody lives forever.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 16:03:56 GMT

It's impossible to describe or put this into words but although it sounds a bit mushy,

My heart beats so fast every time i see you again,it's like as if i'm nearly deprived of my words.

That never happens to me,only you can do that.Why do you keep doing that?:)

Singapore Idol

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:56:49 GMT

07 October 2009:

The Singapore Idol show was both impressive & enthralling at the same time.The roaring but supportive crowd at Mediacorp were very encouraging and i would say,it lifted the spirits up for all of us.With much excitement and enthusiasm,i was impressed by the amount of energy the crowd had sustained for the whole,entire show.

Pictures from yesterday:

-Credits to Kak Ain(Jezabelle Isa) for the photos love you kak!

We look so happy!haha

Cheryl,Kak Hani,Kak Ain,Kak cute!haha they are all so lovely and pretty!

Cheryl is sooo tall!

My Friend,the talented singer:
It's almost impossible to not be amazed by Faizal's awesome singing talent whenever he sings for the crowd.With his charm and talent,he will definitely make it far in this idol journey.
Faizal's a friend of mine whom i met when we were both doing modelling together about a few years back.So coincidentally our paths crossed again during the Singapore Idol Auditions when my elder sister auditioned.All the way Faizal!Do vote for him!:)

Farhan,Faizal and Tabitha!(she's GORGEOUS)

There's Charles,Matt and Malaque!:)

I would like to thank Kak Ain , Faizal and everyone else who invited me to the show!haha i made many new friendships with such lovely people!

Here's to a goodnight!For the next week,i'll be extremely busy studying for the examinations so i guess no more updates till' then:)Wish me luck!

With love,

Dewicinta 09'
xx

Raya kebaya

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 12:10:38 GMT

2nd October 2009:
Girl Power

At first,the girls came over to my place...

Nura just loves my cat,Juliet.

Last Friday was completely unforgettable!I had so much fun with the girls and we managed to go to everybody's place on time without finishing very late.The journey on the MRT was just so hilarious because every ride was a completely different one,we encountered many different kinds of people and all sorts of strange stuff;how Dinah,Dania and I went through one door and the rest had gone through another.So when were in the train,we looked above us to find that the lights have cracks on them and it could shatter anytime soon.The best part of it was how we were so concerned about the lights(is it going to shatter and make us blind?haha)shattering that we missed the stop!Nura & the rest were shouting at us to come out but just as when we were trying to exit,the doors had shut closed(it seemed like the doors were "mocking" at us).

Love you girls!^^

With Love,

Dewicinta 09'
xxx

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 14:49:33 GMT

"Time is a strange commodity,because we seem to have so much of it,until the moment we have none at all."